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Sunday, 15 July 2012

I love my band but ...


Sometimes I just want to ...

drink something cold and fizzy

eat stir fries, preferably chicken with sweet chilli sauce.

eat a sandwich with fresh soft bread

eat a whole Sunday dinner.

eat out without fear of getting stuck.

not have to think about how much I am chewing a particular piece of food.

not have to spit out bits of food because they are too tough.

chew gum because mints don't give me that fresh breath feeling.

be able to wallow in self pity occasionally and eat crap all day.


And then I remember

I paid a **** load of money for this

because although I sometimes want to do those things,

I want something else even more.



Before the band, I had bad days more often.

They turned into bad weeks or even months.

I would turn it around again

but it was just such a constant battle.


The battles post band are different.

I still battle for good choices over bad.

I still battle to stay away from the naughties that I know will go down nicely.

 

Today I didn't win the battle

but I am going to win the war.

Thank you band for helping with the fight.

You are the difference between the failures of my past

and the success of my future.

I count on you to not let me do the things I want to sometimes.

Even if I appear ungrateful

Even if I test you sometimes

I love you more than you can ever realise.

Thank you.

11 comments:

RockBand Barbie said...

Love this post :)

I chew gum all the time...nobody ever really told me not to.

adorkbl said...

Girl... you can chew gum!! Just don't swallow it. LOL.

Ronnie said...

Agreed - gum is fine! :)

But I agree with everything else - sometimes I just want to eat everything in sight. Now I still do... but it's like a single bite of everything. lol

o.c. bandster said...

great post. i agree on many, many, many of these "wishes."

Amy said...

sugar free mint chocolate gum is my crack. it doesn't lose flavor after 30 minutes. I buy that gum in bulk, baby. Nom nom nom!

jennxaz said...

your post hit home with me!

Rachel said...

I love this post. It is so true. I open cans of diet coke and leave them in the fridge overnight. But I make different choices now than I would before. When I would go on huge dieting kicks, I would stop all sugar, dessert, carbs like it was all or nothing. Now I have dessert and pasta and all of those things, just tiny little portions of them! xoxo

MandaPanda said...

It's funny how we all immediately gravitated toward the gum comment. I chew it all the time as well. I don't have any "never" foods...I just have "seldom" foods. The mental battle is never over, I'm afraid. We can do this...together!

Michelle said...

I heart our bands! We are all banded together ... Thanks for the post.

sweet addy said...

I want something cold and fizzy, too! This is my biggest struggle.

Andrea said...

Love this!