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Tuesday, 14 February 2012

A filling Valentine's Day

I have to confess, that I started today on quite a downer. It is valentine's day and I have nobody special to share it with ... unlike last year when I was all loved up, my grandfather had only just passed away a month before but I was still very perky considering and we had a wonderful evening together. I was convinced that today would be rubbish. So I decided to take advantage and send a facebook message to the people I haven't told (but need to) about my bad run. I don't do a lot of status updates and cryptic things on facebook but certainly my last few have all had comments by others that looks like some people have been deliberately told and others left out of the loop. I don't like that and although that is how I am with my band, I don't want my Mum's illness to be like that. Also some people seemed to have added 2 and 2 and come out with 37 so it needed clearing up. I wrote one message to 20 + people saying the whole bad run deal (some people didn't know Ed and I weren't together and some people didn't know my Dad has been diagnosed with a rare face condition either) I cried writing it several times but it needed to be done and then I read some blogs. Andrea's post this morning made me cry. I have been such a misery guts about this stupid day, that I forgot what matters is that I love a lot of people and they love me. I resolved to be more positive and left for my fill.

All went well apart from the 40 minute wait because the fill nurse got her times muddled up. I am tighter. I have another half a ml in. I can drink easily but have no desire to glug when I went to the gym. The soup I had for lunch at 1.30 pm has kept me satisfied along with the chocolate buttons (IT'S VALENTINE'S DAY!!!) I sucked on at 6 pm (after the gym). It is now 9 pm and I will possibly have some more soup after this. I met a very nice lady who keeps her band very tight and we talked being banded. It is good to chat to people in person about their experiences.

As I left for the clinic, I got a text from one of the 20+ saying how sorry she was etc. I got home afterwards to 5+ more messages and emails. I had another 5 after my nail appointment and the gym. I have had 3 people I haven't spoken to in ages text me tonight.

Valentine's day is very much a good holiday. My friends love me and I love them too. (and now I am crying again, soppy me!) I am very very blessed.


Andrea said...

I'm so glad that you opened up to people and got so much love back! You are definitely very loved. Sometimes it's so easy to focus on what we don't have that we forgot to focus on the things we do!

I had a fill today too so I'm on liquids with you. Hope you know how special you are and had a great day!

MandaPanda said...

I think sometimes, especially when things aren't going well, we tend to forget that we have much to be grateful for in our lives. Sounds like you have some wonderful friends and turned out to be a pretty good day. :)

Ronnie said...

I'm so glad you have so much love and support in your life, it's so crucial to our happiness. Sometimes you just need to put feelers out and let people tell you how much they really do care. :)